Meet Jack!

Hey. It's Jack.

I've hijacked gone onto Elly's Blogger today! Don't ask me why, because honestly, you do not want to know  I have no idea!

Elly is sat on the floor playing on the Wii if you're interested..
"Jack. They're not interested.."
SHUT UP. I'M an INTERESTING PERSON!

Seriously.. voices in your head.. you've got to hate them sometimes...

Anyway, hi. I'm Jack. Elly's boyfriend. And yes, before you ask, I am incredibly insane sexy.

You've seen pictures of me, I know... and I'm surprised your computer actually survived such a large amount  of hottness. Just ask Elly. She would totally agree.
"No she wouldn't." Urm.. be quiet.. I know what my own girlfriend thinks. "No.. you really-" Be quiet now voices.. time to sleep..

Now, I do have a reason for doing this completely random blog post. The reason is to tell all you lovely people about the fact that Elly LOVES pandas. Like.. they're her FAVOURITE thing. "More than you Jack?" Yes. Actually. Yes.

And that's all. Elly loves pandas. And I'm Jack.

Nice speaking to you!

J.

Major Confidence Boost.

I think this is probably the first week in a while I've only done a minuscule amount of schoolwork!

My week has been amazing, but so busy!

I've been doing Work Experience this week at a pre-school opposite my house.

All of the children most of the children are as good as gold, and I've found it's really helped me to gain confidence, and have the opportunity to be independent and responsible.

It's strange, because something I'm not used to doing in my life is acting mature.

I'm the baby of the family, apart from a cousin that is the same age as me, and just one younger that cousin only a year younger(although he probably has a higher mental age).

Being around such young children really made me feel like I had to mature a lot. I felt so responsible for their safety in particular, and I had to push aside my clumsiness and carelessness and really take every single thing I did into consideration.

I wasn't used to this.

However, in the short number of days so far, there have fortunately been zero accidents involving me!
In fact, I've done a pretty good job of caring for the children.

I've even got over my fear of assertiveness and managed to be strict with the naughtier kids.

I feel I've taken a large step forwards with my confidence.

• I've gained the ability to talk to new people: I've made a few new friends, spoken to lots of adults and got on very well(usually, I'd ask friends I was with to go buy something for me in a shop, because i was "too scared" to talk to the adults), and spoken in front of the class many times without feeling shy or embarrassed.
• I've been more confident about myself, especially in public. Jack and I went to a barn dance on Saturday. It was so much fun, and I participated eagerly in almost every dance. A year or so ago, I would have cowered in the corner, concerned I'd mess up or do something stupid, and worried that everyone's eyes would be on me.
• I really feel that I've grown up an awful lot. Although I can still be childish and silly and an awful brat sometimes, I can now hold mature conversations with adults, vary my character depending on the situation and be responsible for others, myself and my things.

I just thought I'd share all of this to you, to let you know that if you, like me, thought you were completely helpless... Well, there is hope!

Enjoy being young while it lasts though, by all means.

With all my love,

Elly. xox <3

Ohmygoshwhat?

Can your brain take it...?

I'm one of those depressing people in life who absolutely loves the world's Great Unanswered Questions!

I am an extremely opinionated person, and I'm sure if you gave me a topic of debate, I'd have plenty to say about it.

However, a lot of the things I think about on a weekly basis tend to be the sort of topic that would bum out the entire room in a classroom debate or family gathering. People don't like to put the world into perspective and think about what's up there, who's up there, and what exists beyond the stars...

Here are some of my favourite questions that totally get my mind boggled:

1. Is there a God?
2. If God made the universe, who made God?
3. Is there a meaning to life? If so, what is it?
4. What is the point of living a good life if we are just going to die?
5. Is there any form of spirituality to life? Heaven? Hell? Ghosts?
6. Are we here for a reason, or is it just luck and coincidence?
7. Are we the most intelligent living thing in existence?
8. What is time? Does it continue when we all die?
9. What are memories? Are they illusions? If there are no memories, do we have free will?
10. If God created everything, why did he create Satan?

I probably shouldn't torture myself with these thoughts - half of the time they petrify me!

On the other hand, I just absoultely love thinking about things that nobody can answer.

A lot of the time, thinking about something that is completely beyond somebody's understanding will spin them out, make them feel worthless and probably depress them for a day or two.

Me on the other hand?

These questions tend to make me feel better about my life.

I hate inequality in society. I have exceptions for certain things such as authority within work places or within households, but to me, equality is totally important.

I don't like the idea that Scientists are so desperate to find out all of these things that we probably didn't need to know anyway. We live and we die, that's my motto, and we don't need to know all of these facts if they'll be no use to us anyway.

These questions make me feel happy because:

a) I like to know that nobody knows the answers, not even the smartest of people, and it makes me feel just the same as everybody else.

b) Really, the little things in life that get me down aren't so important. We're just a tiny little speck on this big blank canvas. We're not particularly that significant. This makes me feel better about who I am and how important I am in society, because really we're all just in the same position.

I hope I've made you all think about things and put things into perspective...

If you want to share your views I'd be happy to listen, I'd love to debate with you about my opinion and share my views on any of the above matters or any other questions you'd like to share.

I hope I haven't bummed any of you guys out too much :-(

Enjoy your weekend!

All my love to you,

Elly. xox <3

The Boggle Sign.

I have an obsession with a game called Boggle on the iPad.

For those of you who don't know, Boggle is usually a board game where on a 4 by 4 grid you have 16 letters. You have to make words by joining the letters horizontally, vertically or diagonally, but you can't pass over a letter you've already used or use one square more than once.

On the iPad, it is completely addictive, and whilst my 43-year-old Mother averages a score of approximately 36, I race ahead with scores of 60, 70 and 80.
My high score is currently 87, but I don't like to brag or anything... ;-)

But here's a sign if I've ever seen one.

I went onto Boggle for the first time in a while yesterday. And if that's not a sign of complete and utter nerdiness in itself, the four letters across the top of the grid perfectly spelled out:

G E E K

... Well, then, Boggle.

That's just rude.

Love and best wishes,

Elly. xox <3

The Chance To Be Popular!

I wonder how many of you would grasp the chance to be popular if it was right in front of you.

Imagine if it was right there; a sign on the school bulletin:

Recruiting new members into our super popular friendship group! Any geek accepted - we will transform you.

Would you take it?
Would you even glance?
Would your eyes widen so much that they almost pop out of your head!?

Imagine that... The opportunity to be popular... Leave all your 'geek' past behind, become somebody else, live a life of popularity...



I thought about this today.
In my friendship group at school, we're not exactly the most popular people.
We're eccentric and different - 'quirky', you might say.
We have many friends, and we're all close within our group and get along well (most of the time!). However, we're not exactly the coolest kids around.

That's okay, though, because we have each other. However lame it sounds, it's true, and it's nice to know that we have a group of friends who can always support each other no matter what, knowing that we're all in the same position.

There are friends recently within our friendship group that have slowly moved away from us. They've sidled over to a more 'popular' group of people who don't participate in perhaps the most sensible of things.

This made me consider the word popular. What does this word mean, and why do we use it?
Watching those people who were my friends tag along with those stupid and egocentric people made me think that they really weren't popular at all.
Their status within the school now hadn't altered. They were just the same as they were before, just participating in things that I view as completely idiotic, ignorant and self-harmful.
As they tagged along with their newly found 'friends', acting all big-headed with their rebellious ways and their harmful habits, I really thought about this word, and I thought to myself:

You stupid people! You're not popular at all!

Why hadn't I seen this before!?

It's not being 'cool' that makes you popular. Cool isn't even a relevant word!

Being 'popular' should mean something to you. It should be about having an ideal amount of people surrounding you that love and care for you for who you are, not the stupid things you do.
You should be 'popular' and 'liked' because of your personality.
You should be surrounded by people that treat you like somebody who should be valued in life, and care for your needs.
You should be included in what you do, not left to tag along or watch from the side.

This is what popular really means to me.

So I beg to you, fellow geeks.
If you have a group of people similar to you who really care - even one friend who treats you the way you should be treated - then please do not trade the gift God has given you for something that won't even mean anything to you in a few years to come.

You have love and care and support in your life.
What more could you wish for?

 Love to you all,
Best wishes,
Elly. xox <3

A Little Bit About Me! - Part One

I actually decided I would do two posts today.

My 'about me' section on the right-hand-side was limited of space, and there was too much that I wanted to share with you about my life and everything in it!

So...

Before I start on my main entry for today, I thought I'd do my little 'About Me' section on here, but make it...

Massive!

I don't want to bore you with my entire life story, but I want to talk more about things you'll probably be interested in or you'll be able to relate to! If I'm going to be blogging for a long time, I want to give my readers the opportunity to understand me as a person, know who I am and what I do, and know that they can relate to me. Most importantly, I want you all to realise that I am entirely genuine.

There's only three things I'm going to talk about for now - I think these sessions should probably be in small doses!

This post may be a little boring compared to the usual - I don't care if you read it all, just skim through or even skip it entirely! It's up to you. :-) enjoy!

1. My Instruments

Something you all need to understand is that music is something so important to me and my life!
In my tiny little box of a bedroom, I altogether own: one full-length electric piano, a ukulele, a classical guitar, an acoustic guitar(a beautiful one! Tanglewood: spruce and mahogany!), and two harmonicas(keys C and D).
Without being a total preacher, music really is an amazing thing. It can move someone in ways words will never have the power to do!

                    Sorry about poor quality, but that's blackberries for you!
I self-taught myself all my instruments, and I adore every single one of them, specifically the piano.
I could spend my whole life on that thing and never get bored.

You can listen to a few of my covers here: www.youtube.com/pianoprincessify

2. My schoolwork.

Something that you might say is 'abnormal' about me is my love for school.

Sure, sometimes I get so tired I'm unwilling to participate, and sometimes I complain early on a Monday morning...

However, I actually enjoy learning and expanding my knowledge.

It's not something I will often openly admit, but here. You have it in writing.

I like the idea that everyday your mind expands, and if you try really hard, you can fit so much knowledge into that small space inside your head.

If you imagine writing everything you knew down onto paper, just think about how much room it would fill! Your bedroom? Your entire house? Your whole village!? I guess it depends how smart you are...

There are, of course, subjects I don't enjoy so much, such as PE! Obviously, the fact I'm so tall and dorky means I'm incredibly elegant utterly clumsy and hopeless!

Subjects such as Maths and Science however are my strong point, closely followed by Childcare.

I often spend my spare time making things like this:

Fun right!?

Bet you can't think of a better way to spend your free time than with a bit a massively overpowering amount of Chemistry! ;D

3. My teddies!

This is sort of a bit cringey to talk about, but, I absolutely adore my teddies.

I think I actually have.. 15 in total?

I just can't get rid of any of them - haven't you ever seen Toy Story!? L

I'm in general quite childish.

Although I can be completely mature and adult-like (when I want to be...), I have a child-like nature that makes my personality. :-)

I love fairies, magic, teddies, throwing tantrums, running around like an idiot (you really don't want to see that!), etc etc...

My teddies complete me. :-) I don't know what I'd do without them.

So I suppose this concludes Part One of 'A Little Bit About Me'!
I don't really enjoy talking about myself, and you're lucky I unleashed my secrets upon you. I shan't be doing that often.

I hope I didn't bore you too much, but I do hope it let you know a little bit more about me and who I am :-)
Today I will be producing another blog entry, or at least starting it! I'm hoping to have it uploaded by tonight, and if not, tomorrow afternoon!

Thank you so much for your support over the past week (a week today since my blog's been up and running, and already 103 views! Wahoo!)

With all my love,

Elly. xox <3

Nerds and love? Impossible!

It must be luuuuuuuuurve, luuuuuurve, lurrrrve...

Hello and good greetings, fellow bloggers! Today's entry is going to be a little different from the others. :-) I decided that today I would have a talk about me, my boyfriend and-

What!? Did you just say boyfriend?

Yes, I did indeed.

Well... That can't be possible, can it? You're a nerd... Nerds are meant to be #foreveralone and-

Wait just a darned second here! Are you saying that just because someone is a nerd or a geek, they shouldn't be allowed love? Doesn't everybody deserve love?

Well, I suppose they do.. But a geek with a boyfriend or girlfriend!? I'm sure that's, like, illegal or something? I mean, it's utterly repulsive...

Not really... It's no different from an average or popular teenager having somebody! It's part of growing up!

I guess so... But isn't love hard to find when you're so.. You know.. Lame?

I'll have you know that just because we're nerds, we're most certainly not 'lame'! There's somebody out there for everyone, and you have to keep searching until you find them. There's someone that will love you for whatever and whoever you are. Whether you're big or small, fat or thin, bright or dull...

It's all about waiting for the right person to come along who doesn't care if you love maths. The type of person who finds it cute when you trip up in the middle of the zoo, or where the first time you meet you're too embarrassed to say 'hello' and resort to jumping on his back...

Everybody has the right to live young, find people that will raise their self confidence, and someone who will truly show them that they care.

And when you do eventually find that person, you have to hold onto them for as long as you can, knowing that you're lucky to have found someone that appreciates you for who you are.

Many thanks to Jack for allowing me to upload his pictures!

This post may have been a little bit silly and soppy, but I meant every word of it.

Sadly I have many friends who are upcoming 16 and have never kissed somebody or held somebody in that way.

One of the sad things I often hear them say is, "What's wrong with me?"

It hurts me a lot to hear them say this.

I know that we're only young, and you and they have so much time ahead of them to find somebody. And you will! Honest, you will! Even if it's not a life-partner.. Even if it's just a short relationship, a fling even..

You will find someone who will love you for who you are, and it's important you don't give up.

Don't change for anybody, and don't get yourself down.

You are who you are, and someone out there will love you for that.

Keep smiling. 

With all my love,

Elly. xox <3

It's never your fault.

It's Never Your Fault.

I know a lot of people who are reading this blog will have probably experienced some level of bullying before.
I don't want to seem like I'm stereotyping, and I'm certainly not agreeing, but geeks tend to be lower down in the school and are often bullied for perhaps the way they look, the way they act, their unpopularity, their either knowledge or lack of it, and anything else that a bully can pick out of the bag.

Now this isn't always true.
Particularly when you get to an older age, nerds become cool.

I'm serious!
Standing out from the crowd becomes a good thing, not a bad thing.
Being an individual is a novelty, in stead of looking the same and acting the same as every other teenager. Honestly, popularity is far too mainstream these days.
And let's not even mention intelligence.

Sure, at school immature, absent-minded youngsters can rip you for doing well in class... But who's going to be the one laughing when they're making coffee for you every day in a few years to come?

What kids tend to think when they're picked on for the reasons stated above is that it's basically all their fault.

Well, you want to know what I think about your theory?

Wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong!

You're a kid. You're being who you want to be, or just simply being who you are but who you'd happily choose not to be.
It's the way He made you to be, or the way Science happened to throw your genes together.
You're doing nothing but simply what the other people are doing... Being yourself.

If anything, you're most definitely showing your true self more than they are.
A lot of bullies hide themselves away behind this big strong mask, when really deep down inside they're just as small and fragile and 'weak' as their victims.

The saying is true you know, bullies never prosper.
And I know it gets you down - I've had the experience, I understand how it feels..

But you have to try and get through it.
You have to laugh to yourself, tell yourself you're the better and stronger person, and know deep down that they will truly suffer for their actions.

Nerds unite.

Forever.



All my love,
Elly. xox <3

A Geek? What's a geek?

Good afternoon, fellow geeks!

This is my first proper blog entry after my little introduction about my blog and myself :-)

I know a lot of you are wondering what I probably define as a 'geek'.

There's obviously different kinds of definitions for the word geek.

I would mainly separate the 'geeks' into two categories:

Geek Number One - The Quirky Geek

The quirky geek is usually the more self-accepted nerd, and willing to participate in the geek society.

Take me, for example.

I am a lover of maths. In my free time I study, at least 2 hours a night at least 5 times a week. I play a lot of instruments, including the ukulele (a well-known nerdy and quirky instrument, I might add!) I often do a lot of embarrassing and cringy things - the sort of things a parent may do. I tend to fall over quite a lot and excessively blush, I tend to fail in the logic department, and I am extremely socially awkward.

These geeks are usually the kind that choose to be that way.

Geek Number Two - The General Nerd

I don't want you all to think I'm stereotyping 'geeks', but these are just some of the things that define a general nerd.

General nerds are almost always low down in the school. It's unlikely that they will fit in with any of the popular social clicks.

They tend to get bullied. Not always, but often. They usually feel lonely.

They find it difficult to accept themselves for who they are, especially if they didn't choose their path.

General nerds can fall into this category mainly if a) they are stereotypically nerdy: you know, the math-loving geeks with the glasses and the buck-teeth and the goofy laughs? Yeah, them! And b) if they're generally unpopular. Sometimes the more unpopular kids within a school or a class may be defined as 'geeks'.

These are the kind of people I want to help out. I want to turn you people into self-loving geeks with the ability to embrace your inner nerd, be confident in who you are and allow yourself to socially awkwardise your way into happiness. :-)

The people in the first category? Well, I'm here to humour you all as you laugh at my failing ways, reminisce on the times you, too, failed at life, and allow you to help anyone in need.

I'd also like to make it clear that just because I'm using the words 'geeks' and 'nerds' to describe all you lovely people, doesn't mean I'm a big mean bully.

I actually think geeks are cool.

Geeks tend to be down-to-Earth, kind, sensible human beings with the tendency to behave like a normal kid, rather than those teenagers nowadays who grow up way too fast.

If you came under any of the headings I just explained, please, embrace your inner nerd.

You're not uncool.

You're downright freakin' awesome. Kay?!

Love,

Elly xox <3

Welcome!

Welcome!

Hello everyone, and welcome to The Diary of A Geeky Girl!

My name is Elly, I live in the UK, and I am, of course, a generally geeky girl.

I'm 15 and I go to Secondary School where, as many teenagers nowadays do, I often feel like a bit of an outcast.

There's many reasons that teenagers can often feel this way, and usually, being unpopular, lonely or a bit of a nerd isn't personal choice. In the words of Lady Gaga, baby, you were born this way.

However, being 'geeky', as I've defined it, sometimes is personal choice.

I know what you're thinking, right?

"Who on Earth would want to be a nerd?!"

Well, my newly found blogger friends - the simple answer to that is, of course, me.

I used to be in with the 'popular kids'. You know the kind? Those kids that everyone looks up to, wants to be, stares at in the corridors, always wants to sit next to in class... Those lot.

Now, most people in my school would have loved to be popular. I felt quite lucky that I was considered to be part of their group...

Sadly though, I didn't seem to fit in.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not stereotyping popular kids! Some popular kids can be really nice, and some are even popular because of their personality, God forbid!

But I didn't want to be liked because I was in with the 'cool people'. I wanted people to like me for who I was, not what I was. I wanted to be different, stand out from the crowd...

And so to me, the answer seemed obvious.

Become a nerd!

I wanted to love who I was, be loved because of who I was and love other people for who they were.

And now, as I'm writing this blog entry, taking my first step into the big scary blogging world, I'm hoping that I can make people proud of who they are, and love themselves for being a geek.

If I can improve the life of one teenager out there like me, I will leave this blog feeling that I have done my job correctly.

Thank you for reading.

Love to all,

Elly. <3